“Power”


It was a Chinese New Year weekend – it was the eve on Sunday and we had a nice little get together dinner at Gerry and Jesslyn’s newly renovated home. I had done a ribs barbie and Tress and made a fruit platter and there was plenty of food so it made for a very slow Monday at work the next day.

The weekend had been an ordinary one. The usual run of now familiar again activities was broken only by a nice breakfast at a cafe on Jolimont Street on the other side of Springvale. We had been there once before a couple of years or so earlier. After breakfast we went home, did some gardening (me) and laundry (Tress), got the food for Sunday, made some soups for the week, before settling down for an old movie – “Narrow Margins” starring Gene Hackman and Anne Archer. It was an old fashioned “thriller” played out mostly on a train ride up the east coast of Canada.

Church the next day started a Romans 1-7 series and it again got me thinking about what is it about the “life transformation” message of the gospel I’ve been missing out on. A piece on the gospel coalition site yesterday prompted that same question. Will it simply be about talking to others about Jesus and the gospel? I dont recall the last time I did that and I guess that should be disturbing.

I hope I dont lose this thread…

We watched bits of a program on TV last night. It was a documentary of the Anita Cobby killing and I said to Tress I recall sitting in a court in Sydney, trying to follow a murder trial for the first (and only) time in Australia, not long after commencing my law studies in UNSW. My Criminal Law lecturer had strongly encouraged us to attend the trial and so I dutifully went. I have to say I remember so very little now, even with the detailed re-telling of the events in the show last night.

30 year anniversary notwithstanding – the Cobby murder happened in February 1986 – I wonder how much of this has been prompted by the success of shows like “Making a Murderer” on Netflix. Tress and I had been transfixed for several nights by that show. I had been skeptical and found out that the producers (Moira Demos and Co) had not been totally open, and (according to the Wisconsin AG dept) key information have been kept from viewers. It was good TV nonetheless and I wonder if I ought to feel lousy for watching it simply for the entertainment value.

I have no doubt the whole Cobby murder trial had “entertainment value”, horrible as it may sound. The interviews, flashbacks, footage and re-enactments – while staples for documentaries, have all been given fresh focus by Making a Murderer and was so worthwhile as a venture for TV program makers. And we were happy consumers, until of course, we immerse ourselves in some other activities … such as telling others about Jesus?

Working…


There was a meeting invite at work yesterday. It was for a “town hall” meeting called by the CEO. Earlier in the day, an announcement had gone out to the stock exchange, in relation to some federal police investigations into the conduct of past company executives.

I came into this job with eyes wide open. My employer has a very messy history. It’s US operations had a horrible reputation of corruption of public officials to win supply contracts. Its CEO was charged and found guilty and has been awaiting sentencing proceedings. Sure, that was all in the past and since a couple of years ago, there has been almost wholesale changes to the board and senior management.

The more recent repercussions of the US history on its Aussie parent are being felt afresh, even from the time when I accepted the offer of a role. The announcement yesterday made all of this very present and while I have had my share of being in organisations having all sorts of engagement with authorities, those past experiences never really arm one to simply brush off fresh encounters with nonchalant disregard. It stayed on my mind, as it did when the prospect of this role first came up through my recruiting agent.

Andrew had told me about the role back in September/October last year. I had then looked at the position description document and when I did my research of the company, my interest waned and I said to Tress then that I would not be actively pursuing this role. The company’s recent history was an issue. I kept it in prayer nonetheless, as I had continued to miss Tress and Melbourne very badly.

At the interview with the person who is now my manager, I got the sense that everyone at the company recognises its problematic past and wants to do everything possible to deal with that as well as look forward to growing the company again. The new people want to start afresh. That theme of a second go, a fresh start, another opportunity to get it right and build something all over again – it appealed to me. As a half centurion who has had a very forgettable track record of a very ordinary sinner, the idea of being given another go appealed to me.

It still feels a bit counter-intuitive. Being in a hip industrial part of Melbourne, working on the first floor with production facilities downstairs, sitting across engineers and developers and all housed in a building across the road from what I recently discovered is a brothel – this all feels surreal. Yet, there is the attraction of being in such a down to earth, fair dinkum, and almost raw environment which also provides such a juxtapose of circumstances it almost creates a conundrum that is addictive. Strangely, I want to come in each day to see where this will be heading, how it will pan out. There is certainly work to be done. Tenders to process, contracts to review, policies to be written, insurances to manage – operational as well as strategic stuff that fill in the hours and turn then over fairly quickly.

Maybe I’m still basking in the contentment of being home with Tress again. I sense however, that being in my present workplace is another phase in that trajectory of waiting on the Lord, wondering what surprises lurk around the corner as I seek to sojourn on a path of knowing God and being part of what He is doing.

This morning on the drive in, the windscreen kept fogging up and Tress and I had to work the air conditioning and windscreen wiper the entire way. Sometimes a journey requires constant working to attain clear vision. The constant working becomes a feature of the journey. It kind of feels that way now. It has been for a while.

Different sort of waiting


The drive in this morning took a lot longer – just over an hour, which is about 20-25 minutes longer than it has taken us so far in this experimental period. While in our heads driving in to work remains an experiment, I suspect it would be pretty much the settled mode of commuting to work. When I refuelled last night, the bill came up to $30. It was a very cheap $15 per week per person for us to drive in to work. The parking is probably the clincher, with both Tress and I having parking space available, for no extra charge. The peak hour traffic – while it can be bad (like this morning) – is blunted by 3AW. The always entertaining Ross & John makes the morning drive lighter and Tom Elliot makes the drive home a little more thought provoking.

We got home last Friday a little than usual, as we stopped somewhere to get me a new shaver. We were at The Glen, a shopping centre we haven’t been to for a long time. We then got home, and settled down to finish the week by watching the tennis. Murray took 5 sets to defeat a player Ross & John described as someone who looks like he has been put together by a bunch of engineers. Milos Raonic is a tall, angular, often expressionless and very efficient up and coming player. He had beaten Federer in an earlier tournament in Brisbane so was a bit of a “to watch” player. We didn’t watch till the end, as the vino had put me into Snoreville…

On Saturday I woke far too early and so I read. “Girl on a train” was a page turner but I had to put it down to get a bit more shut eye before the weekend starts. That morning I the little furry ball a bath and he who was very affectionate. He protested being blow dried by repeatedly burrowing his head into my chest, and each time looking up to give me a big lick on my nose. Tress washed the sheets/laundry and later we went to Madam Kwong’s for lunch and then got some groceries. I wanted to start making soups for freezing again. We then went home and started watching “Making a Murderer” – another feather in Netflix’s cap. We had dinner reservations at 6.30 somewhere in Hawthorn and had to tear ourselves from that very engrossing series, to make dinner.

Dinner was at “Once a Tailor” on Glenferrie Road. After dinner we went back to watch more tennis before hitting the sack.

The next morning after talking it over with Tress we decided to continue supporting a young couple from St Alf’s who are doing good work in Thailand. At church, leaders got “commissioned” and Tress and I continued discussing how to serve through St Alf’s, in 2016 (and beyond). I had wanted to do something to serve at or via St Alf’s for a while now but the Canberra detour in 2015 put paid to those thoughts and aspirations. God’s grace in day-to-day matters has been so evident I feel it wrong to not revisit those thoughts and aspirations once that grace has allowed me to settle back into Melbourne.

The waiting on Him theme needs to likewise, be revisited albeit in a different context.

“StaKs (St Alfred’s Kids)”? Something else?

Last night, we watched more of “Making a Murderer” but I hope weekends ahead wont be made up of just this armchair sleuth stuff. God’s grace requires a service response. I hope He shows Tress and I soon, what this is to look like.

 

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Weekend at home and David & Jean


David and Jean – two persons who were on my mind a lot in recent days. But on Saturday morning it was Auntie Hooi we visited. She had gone into hospital on the same day David my brother went back into hospital in Malaysia. She had her surgery on the same day and my brother David had his the next day, on Friday.

Auntie Hooi has had an upper vertebrae issue for a number of years. It has caused numbness and the risk of worse consequences hangs over her and finally after strong medical opinions, she had the surgery she had put off for years. David was suddenly diagnosed with a malignant growth in his kidney, around new year’s. He had that kidney removed on Friday.

Against these, I had decided to have as normal a weekend as I possibly can. I wanted to live life, and hopefully serve God, while I still can.

We had had a normal Saturday morning earlier on before visiting Auntie Hooi. I had planted a hydrangeas plant we picked up the previous weekend from a nursery in Warrandyte. It was good to be home on a weekend again, without the spectre of a long drive on the Hume on Sunday after an early lunch.

We drove into town to get to the Richmond Epsworth hospital. Auntie Hooi looked well although she wasn’t mobile, which would take a while to remedy. Later, Natasha her daughter turned up and then later a couple of her old school friends also rocked up. We talked, which was terrific. Just as we were leaving, Auntie Pin came in with lunch for Auntie Hooi, with Uncle Jin behind. We only spoke briefly as the parking meter was nearly up.

We drove back to Box Hill and got to know Rose, the new owner of Madam Kwong’s Kitchen. The food was still very good so we decided we’d keep coming on weekends.

After lunch it was grocery shopping (a lot, for some reasons) before we ended the day with a Disney movie – Kevin Costner in “MacFarland” – on Netflix. It was a lovely story of a battling football coach/school teacher ending up in a Mexican migrant fruit picking town in California. The football team was hopeless but he discovered the cross country running ability of the kids and coached them to be State champions. Typical Disney triumph against the odd story but it was a lovely way to finish the day, while waiting for an opportunity to speak with David on the phone, which Jean had told us would be better on Sunday.

On Sunday it was a great service at St Alf’s with the theme of God’s Grace as a raison d etre for our daily behaviours. After lunch at Madam K’s again, we came back and started clearing out some old clothes for op-shop, to clear the guest room for Kiddo and Mic to come visit over the Australia Day weekend. I then cooked some soup for the week’s dinner and did some ironing while Tress did more laundry. It was another very hot day and when we finally walked LBJ, the heat was still palpable. We came back and after exchanging messages with Jean, decided to give David another day or so of rest, before attempting to speak with him. From the exchanges with Jean, he sounds tired and up against it. So he (and Jean) remain in our prayers for now, as the only thing we can do, for now.

God’s grace requires a response. That was Mike’s message from the book of Titus on Sunday. I wonder how mine would look like. I wonder what God has in place for me as a response to His grace.

Working in Melbourne again


I had just finished a piece of work on this my third day of my new role when I was given a form to sign.

It’s a form of acknowledgement, stating I’ve read through the various policies and procedures of the organisation. I had actually read through half of them prior to being given this form. Having to sign this form has given me a very good reason to read the remainder.

There’re 30 policies and procedures documents. Most are relevant to me. I have to read all of them. The first (which I had skipped) I opened up about half an hour ago, was the Diversity Policy. It was benign and very uncontroversial, which is a good start. The nature of such documents however is such that I’d only move onto my third document when an overwhelming urge to seek a distraction becomes difficult to ignore, hence this entry.

I rang in to speak to a very efficient executive assistant last Friday, who said to me I will be provided with a car park space at the basement of the office building. Tress and I had discussed driving in to work anyway, especially seeing the connecting trams are currently being replaced by bus services while some tram platforms are being upgraded. With a car park facility, we decided we’ll drive in and we’ve been experimenting with different routes, especially on the way home. We’d been mostly stumbling from one wrong turn to the other but today has been much smoother and I now have a better grip of my bearings in this area.

I’ve been taking my lunch time walks these past couple of days. South Melbourne is a semi hippie area of sorts, perhaps a bit more down to earth/grounded version of Prahran. Certainly it’s got a very different flavour to the east end of the CBD, where I’d last been in Melbourne. Turner/Dickson wetlands is even more an entirely different world but that’s for another day. Parklands and a serene lake is not merely a contrast with chic streets, laneways and shops lined along them. They’re comparable to polar opposites. They require a different mindset if I ever make an entry about it, not merely one that seeks to escape reading another dozen or so policy documents.

Tress office in Port Melbourne is some 3km west of mine South Melbourne and it takes a mere 7-9 minutes to drive from one to the other. So driving in makes sense for the both of us. I said to her this morning it feels like back in the early 1990’s all over again when newly married, we’d both drive to/from Klang to KL every day for work, in the same car. She said we’d come a big circle.

I’d left the roundabouts which in many ways characterised my sojourn to Canberra and now here in the southern fringe of Melbourne CBD, a sense of deja vu creeps in to evoke sentiments still in search of the appropriate words to describe how I feel. I’m grateful for the opportunity and certainly for the work, to which I must now return.

2016 and My Brother


Tress and I came back from our Adelaide holidays on 2/1. It was a very lovely holiday. We stayed at Glenelg, and took in New Year’s Eve countdown at the Glenelg Beach, just off the jetty where the fireworks were on display. Unfortunately on the next day as we were about to go for a New Year’s Day dinner at one of the restaurants on the pier, we witnessed a frenzied scene. Dozens of paramedics and lifeguards were running around and we soon discovered two boys drowned. That brought a sombre end to our holidays but as we were making our way back, our minds were on another sombre matter.

My brother David had gone into hospital in Subang, not far from his home in Shah Alam, on New Year’s Eve on suspected kidney stones. Tests later showed there were no stones and his pains were thought to be attributed to a possible growth in his kidney. He then stayed in the hospital for a few days while awaiting tests and other investigations.

At the time of writing, he has left the hospital and is resting at home. He goes back in next week, for further tests. We’re all hoping the growth is benign.

Jean his wife, has been managing the situation with some stress. As always, well meaning friends and relatives swamped them with visits and questions and I’m guessing physical tiredness has a lot to do with it but she has expressed displeasure at the invasions of privacy.

I suppose they live in this cocktail of eastern communal settings and western individualism and expectations of privacy that come with that. When someone is unwell, everyone wants to be seen to be doing the right thing by asking about what is wrong and paying visits at the hospital. This clashes with desires for personal matters of health to be private. Until recently, these desires give way readily – without questions – to communal expectations. I hope Jean finds strength to deal with this difficult confluence. In the meantime, we all continue to pray for my dear brother.

Since coming back from Adelaide, we have been taking it easy. I only go back to work – my new job – next week so I have the whole week off to do stuff. I spent yesterday cleaning. I vacuumed, cleaned toilets, scrubbed down nook and crannies, wiped down surfaces and cleaned anything that looked like it needed cleaning, including the weber Q. Later I picked up some stuff to oil the deck later this week.

We’ve also fixed the TV reception problem. Since unsubscribing Foxtel a few months ago, the TV reception has been poor with some channels often unavailable. We tried a set top box but in the end we solved in simply by plugging the antennae lead direct into the TV, instead of through a DVD recorder and it worked perfectly and I returned the set top box. It was weird to use a set top box for a newish smart TV anyway.

Earlier today I cleaned up the garden and washed the car. I was so grimy at the end of that and after a shower, I felt too clean to wash LBJ – can leave that for tomorrow or later. I also planned to re-register the car to Vic plates tomorrow (reverting to ET 3777).

I was just thinking of Kiddo and Canberra. She has another step in the process of Defence employment next week and I hope she sail through to the next step. It’s been quite a few steps now so that’s been very encouraging. She’s moved into my old room at the Watson Street apartment and the pics she sent looked good.

2016 has had such a mixed start as a result of my brother’s health. I hope he gets better soon.

Au revoir Canberra


It’s just over 9am and I’m writing this at desk 37, on the 2nd floor of the building on 243 Northbourne Avenue, in the suburb of Lyneham. It will be the last day I’ll be seated at this desk. In fact I’ll likely leave by noon. Kiddo and I have teed up lunch. Then, I exit this very large roundabout, and head back to Melbourne. I can be with Tress again, in that house on Vicki Street.

It has been 7 months and 6 days.

I now know – a little better – what Canberra is like. I know enough to be comforted and assured, that should Kiddo choose to put her tent pegs in in this city, it would be alright. She could -would -have a wonderful life here, if she shall so choose.

This is a quaint city but filled with intelligent – very intelligent – people. She’s also in a good church with very good teaching and she has her own community with whom she can experience godly lives together. If – when – she lands that job, life would surely settle for her.

It has taken 7 months and 6 days on this very large roundabout for me to come to this assurance so I’m looking forward to resuming my life in Melbourne. God has been wonderfully providing in recent weeks – from the job in Redflex down to us finding a set of lost apartment keys a week out before my leaving Canberra, so Kiddo’s new roommate will have a proper set of keys.

Au revoir National Blood Authority. Au revoir Watson Street. Au revoir Canberra.

A Special Week


Tress left work on Friday night and headed straight to the airport. I picked her up from Canberra airport and we headed home to start a magical 10 days.

On Sunday morning Tress and I drove up to Sydney. At the Kingsford Smith airport, we parked and waited at the arrival lounge with excitement. Eventually Sim and Mum appeared. Hugs and greetings exchanged, we climbed into the car and drove back to Canberra, stopping at Goulburn for a bite to eat and take snapshots of the Big Merino.

On Monday after some sightseeing at the arboretum and the old parliament, we bought some groceries and had a home cooked Christmas dinner at home. It felt special and I was very glad we could do that.

Tuesday was the highlight. It was Kiddo’s graduation day and she had successfully earned a PhB so we were very excited. We gave Kiddo her graduation/Christmas present – a dress watch, which was a bit big so we went to Belconnen to have it re-sized, and also got her a bouquet of flowers and a soft toy (a doggie). Later, we started hanging around outside the Llewellyn Hall just after 1pm, excitedly taking photos. The ceremony started at 2pm and when Kiddo had her name called out with a Bachelor of Philosophy (Honours)/Bachelor of Arts (NUS) I felt truly special.

After the ceremony we headed to the Kingston foreshore and had a celebratory dinner at the Wild Duck restaurant, which turned out to be part owned by a Malaysian lady. I had suggested that restaurant because apparently that was the locale for political whispers and Machiavellian manoeuvres, especially by the likes of the present PM Turnbull. The food was good and the service was very friendly and spot on so I had no complaints. I think we all enjoyed the occasion.

On Wednesday morning Tress flew back to Melbourne and for the next 3 days I took Mum and Sim for sightseeing across Canberra. The War Memorial, Parliament, Cockington Green, Brodburger, Fyshwick and Belconnen fresh food markets… I think (hope) they enjoyed the experience.

Tress flew back in to Canberra again on Friday night and on Saturday morning we drove up to Sydney again. We stayed overnight at the Shalom College in UNSW, and took the opportunity to show Mum and Sim the neighbourhood around UNSW, particularly Kingsford. We also drove to Coogee Beach to take in the bustling summer scenes on a Sydney beach suburb. On Sunday morning it was time to bid Mum and Sim farewell as they returned to Malaysia. Tress and I then drove back to Canberra.

It was very warm yesterday when we came back to Canberra. After yum cha lunch with Kiddo and Mic at Belconnen, we returned to keep cool in the apartment.

The bigger/extended family in Malaysia are away in Fraser’s Hill for a family reunion and some have been sharing photos of activities and I was struggling to remember the names of those young people – kids of my cousins. I drew a family tree to map my knowledge of those names and after that I sat down to specifically remember and be grateful for the gushing streams of blessings we have experienced in recent weeks.

Kiddo’s PhB – my new job in Melbourne – Kiddo attending a positive interview for an exciting role – Mum, Sim and Tress in Canberra for that very special week – finding a new roommate for Kiddo in very quick time – me selling my bicycle for a healthy sum – Sim finding the lost bunch of keys to the apartment at the back of the car –Tress finding very convenient accommodation in Sydney (Shalom College in UNSW) –… I said to Tress we are experiencing a period of the 7 fat cows depicted in Pharaoh’s dream in Genesis.

It has been a very memorably wonderful week. I am very grateful for God’s wonderful blessings, especially with the timing of several events. He allowed those difficult months to go through – letting me go through the press – so that this past week becomes so heightened and focus in the overall sense of gratefulness and being blessed.

I thought of the timing especially.

Had I found work in Melbourne earlier, I would not have been here in Canberra during this special week. Being here in Canberra allowed me to “quarterback” logistics involving Mum, Sim and to a lesser extent, Tress. These include the apartment as had I left Canberra earlier we would not have had the privilege of sharing the apartment together through the week. As it turned out, the timing allowed me to see them return to Malaysia and then have a few days to tidy things up before I leave Canberra one last time, to return to Melbourne to start the new year afresh. I am looking forward to the Christmas break with Tress now. It would have been even better if Kiddo was coming along but she’ll have a wonderful time with Mic and his family in Tassie I’m sure. I look forward to being with Tress – and with LBJ of course – knowing we can plan our lives being together from 2016 on. It has been an intriguing 2015.

Special Week


It’s Friday. It’s the last working day before I take a week off. Tress arrives tonight. Mum and Sim arrive in Sydney on Sunday morning. Tress and I will make an early drive up to Sydney to pick them up to then head down to Canberra. From Sunday afternoon onwards, we’d all have a few days together in Canberra, with Kiddo’s graduation on Tuesday being the highlight of the week. We’re all looking forward to this – it will be such a special experience from so many perspectives.